Written by Hudrei Nicole Chua
You’re eyes hide the deepest secrets
You’re smile takes away all my regrets
You’re voice gives me endless shiver
That’re some things about you
that makes my thought flow just like a water in a long,
long river
The first time I saw you,
it wasn’t actually special
You’re not my ideal guy as a typical k-pop spazzing girl
But as time pass the moment by,
I realized why the moment wasn’t special
It is because you were the special one,
the moment wasn’t, the person was.
There I started to get curious
I’m looking at your profile since the first day,
till yesterday, today,
yes, I’m looking at your profile
and I know it’s been a while
But don’t get me wrong,
I am not a stalker
I am not a stranger dreaming to become your lover
I am just a friend..
a curious friend..
a concerned friend..
yes, I am only a friend,
a friend that will be by your side
until the end.
I will be your friend that you can talk to
I will listen to all your rants
and problems, really, I would love to
I will comfort you in times that you are down
I will make you smile
when I see a bad expression in your face– a frown
I will be your shoulder to cry on
when everyone else leave you
I will be brave,
I will stand next to you if you want to
I will hold you tight so you won’t fall
I will help you if I can without any payback at all
I will treat you so special both physical and mental
I will join you in all your adventures,
I will be your pal
I will treat you the best way that I can
And I will love you secretly,
I’ll tell it using a pen.
What? What did I just say?
Did I say I’ll love you?
Scratch that I won’t, I can’t
I won’t love a person who is in love with someone else
I can’t love a person whose priority is something else
I won’t be stupid!
I can’t be stupid!
I can’t love you,
I won’t love you because you are my friend
I am your only friend, and
If I love you,
You might be left alone in the end
I may leave you because I’m hurting
I may leave you because you’re asking help in courting
I may leave you because you don’t know
I may leave you because I’m stupid,
that is so
The least I can do is treat you the way I promised
And the thing you can do is know the boundaries at least
I will take the risk because I know you need me
But please do me a favor, don’t make yourself loved by me
Because I’m here to guide and help you
I am your friend and the most stupid secret-admirer
you will have too until the end
I am brave and I am strong
I am helping you though I know it’s wrong
Cause I can’t take seeing you suffer
I can’t take seeing you hurting longer
But I can’t also take looking at the glass,
Where my reflection stands,
Not knowing until when it would last.
One day, just like my reflection,
I will disappear
My reflection on the glass,
and I, on your life
Our friendship will end, so, so near
The time will come that I wouldn’t be here
I wouldn’t be beside you,
holding and supporting you,
helping you to overcome your fear
So please, my dear, stay strong
Listen to what your heart says,
listen just like how you do in your favorite song
Learn to fight alone, learn to be alone
Learn to move on, learn the time,
the time that you need to stop holding on
Be ready,
I’m sorry
Stay hardy, and please,
be happy.
Sincerely yours,
A friend