You are Beautiful

Written by Aaron Pangaibat

You are beautiful even if you don’t see it sometimes
When others say you aren’t, those are just lies
You are beautiful just by looking at your eyes
With just a simple glance, you give me butterflies
You are beautiful everytime you give me that smile
Forgetting my worries all the while
You are beautiful with every single touch, every hug, and every kiss
I longed for a moment like this
You are beautiful not just because of what the eyes can see
But also because of what my heart is telling me

Someday, I will be the luckiest man alive
The time I have been waiting for will finally arrive
A morning that motivates me to strive
A night that sets my soul to revive
A home to comfortably live in
Full of joy our children will give in
For I’m going to marry you on that day
And tell you, you are beautiful in every way

Thank You for Your Love

I used to look up and pray
that I get the love I give one day
I talked to God almost everyday
to let me have the one who will stay

I asked Him for someone who cares
a person who knows my flaws and bears
he who has a love that never wears
he who has a love for me that flares

and just when I thought He wasn’t listening
and when all my hopes in finding the one is fading
you gave me love that is overwhelming
a love I know that is never ending

now I look at you, I look up and smile
so it was you all the while
how ironic I searched for mile
when all I needed is someone I can reach even with just a smile

now, I look up and utter my gratefulness
for having you, I feel so blessed
your hug, your kiss, your voice, they could swipe my fear and sadness
even just the sight of you, it brings me calmness

I know I said thank you too many times
but this chance we have is already a dime
wasting this would be a crime
so I’m keeping you beside me all the time

to my destiny, my everything, my future husband
whatever I call you, it couldn’t give justice to our bond
all I ask is let’s face everything hand in hand
because whatever struggle it is, I know for sure our love will stand

thank you for you and your love
thank God for listening above
I love you and everything that you have
but most importantly, thank you for your love

The Day I Confessed

Written by Aaron Pangaibat

 

I was in my own world,

You were minding yours

I thought i was living a life any guy would ever wanted,

While you were getting back at your own

I am close to you

And so you are to me

Things already in front of our very own eyes

but we refused to see

Then suddenly it all just happened

I was in shock how things get so bizarre

For I surprisingly confessed and see the beauty of who you really are

Hesitant, thats what you felt

While I am standing by your side and everytime you make my heart melt

I tried once more and said i love you

Like a strike of a lightning, you said you feel it too

I will never waste this God given chance,

Let me tell this not just once,

I’m gonna live a happy life with you

And will give you more love that’s right and true

Another Heartbreak

I have never cried in front of anyone but you

I have never let anyone see the vulnerable side of me

But that day, when tears were about to burst

I find myself looking for you

And you just sat there by my side

Listened to what I had to say

Said few words to make me feel better

And yes, I felt so much better

That day, I think, is when I started to find comfort in your presence

I told you things no one knew about me

I told you things I was afraid to tell even my friends

I told you the darkest things I did

The awful things I had to go through

I didn’t even realize

But I showed you the worst of me

And you’re just there

By my side, listening

I didn’t care if you would judge me

Or look at me with disappointment

But you never did

You opened your arms, and gave me assurance by a hug

Things slowly changed

I must admit I am holding on to your words

I long for your hug every single day

I know I shouldn’t, you know it too

I won’t tell you to do things both of us might regret in the end

I’m not even going to ask you to do things for me

There is still no certainty of what you feel for me

While I think of you at night

I dream of you even

And I’m doing the best I can to ignore these feelings

I’m doing my best not to fall

So please, if you’re not going to stay

Let me know right away

You know I would accept whatever it is

But you have to tell me

Because I tell myself I deserve better

But another part of me says this is the better

If this is all temporary

Let me know right away

So I could ready my heart

For another heartbreak

One More Day with You

I think I loved you too much
but showed and made you feel I didn’t

So if I were to ask one thing for now
i’d ask for a day with you

No, don’t think too much
i just want another day with you

This time, I’ll hold your hand
tell you “i love you” very proud

I’d kiss you whenever you ask
and let you kiss me even with people around

I’d cook you the food you love
and let you stay in my place till dark

I’ll learn and play that game you’re into
and join your team, and cheer for you

I’d talk on the phone with you for hours
and sing you songs till you fall asleep

I’d read you the poem I wrote for us
i’d even join you drink, i’d do these much

But these things won’t happen
we both know it

Though you know I would
if you decide to call me again

So please don’t call, or
remind me of your existence

Not until I wake up one day
without longing for your “good morning”

So, till then, be happy and stay in love
while I continue to mend my broken heart.

Indie Songs and Beers

midnight has struck

half of the people are asleep

but I lay awake

with lots of things in my head

I checked my phone

scrolled a little

then things slowly crept in my mind

and I could not resist

but entertain them

I put my phone down

and let them in

same things

same memories

flashed back

same person

same words

but the pain they bring

it never seem to lessen

tears fell one by one

until I cried a river

my phone beeped

I ignored it

another beep, and another, and another…

I blocked all the thoughts

and checked who’s reaching out

I saw your name

“Beer?” you asked.

“Now?” I replied.

“Yes. Saguijo or 12 Monkeys?”

I got up and changed

“Booked a Grab to Saguijo,” I said few minutes after.

“See you,” you replied.

and so, there we met

indie bands with members younger than us

were playing

we stayed a little

and went to another bar nearby

wandered some more

booked a Grab every time we switched places

inside the car

we could smell cigarettes and beers

but not too drunk for another beer

and so we transferred

from one bar to another

and waited for the sun to rise

in a fast food restaurant

we booked a Grab home

when the sun started to rise

“12 Monkeys next Sat?” you asked.

“Sure,” I replied.

The Rain

Just like the rain

you came unwanted, unexpected

At first I was hesitant

and chose not to drench

But time went by

I held out my hand

And feel few droplets

on my palm

It was cold

but I enjoyed it

It made me seek for warmth

and with you I found it

So, I stepped out a little farther

and got more drenched

It was a new feeling

but damn, I enjoyed it

People looked, warned me

of getting ill

But who cares

under this rain I became livelier,

happier

I neglected the fact

that this came unwanted, unexpected

And just as I realized

how I love being in that state

It stopped without warning

and left me all drenched.

Love, Lies and Loneliness

Written by Tristan Jett Ong

I once had a dog I called Loneliness
I shared him with everyone but they all got depressed
No matter how his hair is styled and how he’s dressed
The people around us all just got stressed

So I got a new dog and I named her Lies
With both of them there no one got teary eyed
I let Lies take the spotlight while Loneliness stayed at the back
There was nothing but cheerful and positive feedback

But Loneliness grew weaker a bit day by day
No longer can he come with us just to play
One day i came home to see that Loneliness had died
The best friend I had for years who was always by my side

But before Loneliness died the two had conceived
Lies was pregnant and I couldn’t believe
I may have lost Loneliness but my heart swelled with joy
What name better than Love would I call this sweet boy

Love was a happy-go-lucky little pup
And Lies was a mother people could only dream of
But it didn’t take long before Lies left the earth
And again my poor heart grieved with sadness and hurt

But then I remembered that Love was still there
I cared for him deeply, took him everywhere
Though it was’t true love but was just a disguise
A love fathered by loneliness and nurtured by lies

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Your touch brings me ripples of excitement

Your voice makes me forget my sleepiness

I crave your hug the way I crave coffee in the morning

I long for your kiss, every minute I utter your name

 
It’s a strange thing, these feelings you bring

I forget what I went through whenever I hear you say “I love you”

In times of discomfort, your hug I’m sure would be my only cure

And hell I know I wouldn’t sleep properly at night without hearing you say good night

 
Things have changed ever since you came back

I started to forget every bitterness I said about falling in love

You see, the things I do for you, it’s a new version of me

A version which I think is better than what I used to be

 
I love you, I’m quite sure of it love

Don’t ask me why, for a day of explaining might not be enough

I love you, can’t you just accept it for now?

Then let’s spend every day showing how we adore each other so much