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Your touch brings me ripples of excitement

Your voice makes me forget my sleepiness

I crave your hug the way I crave coffee in the morning

I long for your kiss, every minute I utter your name

 
It’s a strange thing, these feelings you bring

I forget what I went through whenever I hear you say “I love you”

In times of discomfort, your hug I’m sure would be my only cure

And hell I know I wouldn’t sleep properly at night without hearing you say good night

 
Things have changed ever since you came back

I started to forget every bitterness I said about falling in love

You see, the things I do for you, it’s a new version of me

A version which I think is better than what I used to be

 
I love you, I’m quite sure of it love

Don’t ask me why, for a day of explaining might not be enough

I love you, can’t you just accept it for now?

Then let’s spend every day showing how we adore each other so much

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Tell Me

Tell me

what did you see in her

for you to think that

it was better to leave

me, and be with her.

 

Tell me

does she whisper “I love you”

sweeter than I did

does she hold your hand

tighter, like she is more afraid

to let you go

like her life is unimaginable

without you.

 

Tell me

does she sing to the songs

you play, does she laugh louder

at your corny jokes, does she

make your coffee as perfect as I did.

Does she even know you love

it when it rains, you loathe it

when the sun touches your skin,

does she take note of these things?

Does she hug you like

it would be the last

does she kiss you when you’re mad,

when you’re down, when

you’re happy, when you least

expect it.

 

Tell me

what did you see in her

that you did not see in me

does she do things better than

I did, does she love you

more than I did?

 

Tell me

just tell me these things

just give me reasons

lie or truth, I promise

to believe.

 

Tell me

just give me something to blame

so I could stop thinking, where

it all went wrong

so I could stop crying at night

blaming myself, blaming you

blaming what I did, blaming

what I said. And I cry even more

knowing that nothing went wrong

you just decided to let go.

Remember

 

Remember

We were side by side

That one day in April

You reached for my hand

And asked me to look up to the sky

“It’s blue,” I said.

“Yes, it is. It means sadness… but now that I’m looking

at it while holding your hand, it brings me so much

happiness.”

Then you looked at me

Smiling so bright and whispered,

“I love you.”

 

Remember….

The way you whispered those words

The way I gasped as I feel those words

It made my knees weak

It sent shivers to my spine

It brought butterflies in my stomach

“I love you,”

I whispered as well.

 

 

 

 

Remember…

How we spent our days together, that

We almost believed in forever

We even promised to be with each other

But then…

 

Remember…

The day you begged me to let you go

Not because we fell out of love, or so

You just begged me to let you go

And I did because I love you so

I did because I want you to be happy, it’s true

I did even though it was breaking my heart

in more than two

I did because I believed in songs from stereo

I did because I thought you just needed time for yourself too

 

And I regret it

I regret everything

I regret saying yes to your stupid reasons

Now my mind is clouded up with questions

“How did you manage to look happier?”

When I still go to sleep

Remembering your smell

And  always wake up with a thought

A hope that you would still be here

madly in love

The lies you’ve told, the tears I’ve hold

The annoying smile you have when you’re so sure I’m buying your deceptions

The tales of your “I’m sorry”, “I’ve changed” and other bullshits you utter as you hold my hand

I held everything in, I’ll hold everything in.

For you

For you not to get hurt

For you not to be disappointed with yourself

For you not to blame yourself.

I’ll give you forgiveness like I did in the past, for

I know you’ll change (but only for a short period of time). And

I’ll continue playing blind, and playing dumb

Because I love you

despite of your lies I’m drowned with

despite the changes I’ll forever wish

despite all these doubts in my head

I’ll still hold your hand and prevent you from drowning

I’ll still hug you and protect you from the reflections of your sins

I’ll love you

even if that means I’ll be drowning with you

even if that means I’ll be wearing the cuts and bruises from hugging you

I’ll love you until you learn to love yourself

I’ll love you until I have given you everything, and

I’ll still love you even if it means I’ll be left with nothing.

 

leave to live

Keep talking

      continue proving

       it’s all a lie.

I’ll listen

       and force myself to believe

       every word you say.

Must we continue

       hurting each other

       a little more?

Bring us to reality

       and realize

       it was never our destiny.

Ease our pain

       break my heart some more

       until it hurts no more.

Read my lips

       listen to my heartbeat

       i’ll love you until today.

Leave me please

       let’s stop this woebegone

       and start anew.

You were my world

       you were my destroyer;

       be my savior.

how

how is it possible

you could still walk

with your head

held high

with your friends

you still laugh

and smile

while i could

not walk alone

i miss you by

my side

i could not laugh

nor smile because

you took every

reason i have

what is left

is not enough

 

how could you

survive and

live normally

when in everything

it used to be

you and me

how could you get

up and face

each day

with a glow

when we used

to wake up

with “i love you”

and “hello”

 

how could you

stay that way

when i

was left with

no clue

on how to continue

and forget

when you said

“without me,

happiness

will just be

a word for you”

 

My Forever

my feelings were clear

I made sure you know dear

took every moment for you to see

that your presence brings me glee

 

such bliss was returned

my heart, I felt it burned

I heard those words finally

saying you also love me

 

I think I should let you know

that you give me so much glow

and when you smile at me it’s obvious to see

‘us’ is what’s supposed to be

 

when you touch my face I shiver

when you hold my hand the feelings make me wonder

would it feel the same in years to come

would it still be perfect without yours in my palm

 

the days with you I want to last

dates with you, coffee every breakfast

even disagreement with you I value

especially if it’s about a book we argue

 

love, a poem is all I offer

but they say writings last forever

and that’s how I hope us to be

forever, there will be you and me