Nobody knows that you’re tired of everything
That you’re barely alive and breathing
You’ve tried enough but the demands are too much
You always end up going back to scratch
You were so fragile, so pure
Everything was serene, every wound has a cure.
Until the ajar door into reality
Opened wide, you stepped into it excitedly
Because you thought it was the same world you made yourself believe
At last! Seeing it is the purpose you live
You thought it’s a world of bliss
It’s a world you would hug and kiss
But then, the more you hug it, its thorns come out and make you bleed
The more you want to kiss it, it seeks more than what it need.
You wait for others to sleep in the middle of the night
And there, you lie so weak, with no one in sight
You question everything, how your perspectives changed
You can’t come up with an answer, in pain you cringed
You sob, and sob, and sob some more
You sob like you’ve never done it before
You bang your head on the wall
In hopes that that situation you won’t recall.
You think there is no one
You’re too focused with your pain
You think it’s the only thing you gain
But darling, you forgot to recognize someone’s name
Even without calling Him, know He’s taking all your shame
You always seek comfort from those who disappoint you
When there He is, willing to love all of you
You think He created rain to drown you
When all He wanted is to wash away your thoughts of being blue
You blame the sun for having you feel burn
When all He wanted was to show how bright His love could turn
You loathe everything around you
When He created it all because of His love for you.
There is no one…
but Him who stayed with you.